winter break feels so good.

im just writing this post because my last post doesn't apply anymore.
God is good, I'm not.
Who is there in heaven like You?
Who among earth is Your equal?
No one.
Thank you Lord for everything.

do You really hear me when im crying?
do You really catch me when im falling?

please dont let my heart wander oh God.
I doubt You, Oh Lord, I have little faith.
Strengthen me oh God, help me not to fall away.

I am scared...
I am lonely...
I hate my life...

just...please...Lord...
give me the strength to move mountains
give me wisdom to understand why.

HELP ME.

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Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark
Is creeping in
Creeping up
To swallow me
I think I'll stop
Rest here a while

And didn't You see me cryin?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember
Where you sat it down

I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that
That was You holding me
I didn't notice You were cry'n too
I didn't know that
That was You washing my feet

Who am I



Who am I?


That the Lord
of all the earth

Would care to
know my name


Would care to
feel my hurt


Not because
of who I am



But because of
What You've done


Not because of
What I've done


But because of
Who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord You catch me when I'm falling
and You told me who I am
I am Yours



For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast. -Ephesians 2:8-9

Thank You
LORD

Happy Thanksgiving everyone =] This is my first post ever on blogspot. woot

I expected big changes coming back home. I was the big boy who went off to college and coming back home. I figured my house would've been changed, my parents different, and my friends all grown up. But when i got home, wow..
NOTHING CHANGED.
My house is still the same, maybe a few little rearrangement of furniture. My parents and my sister are exactly the same. no change at all. Especially, my friends.. haven't..changed..at..all..
Bryan still says hes too tired and poops on parties. Still studies at home and hangs with his parents and not me :(
Caleb STILL has to watch his sister at home so he can't come out...
Minho still has a girlfriend and hasn't changed at all.. haha good old minho
David..oh boyy.. no license still, i have to drive him around still.. maybe he changed a little bit. hes not david anymore. hes dave...NAHHH

So what in the world changed around here?! We all went off to colleges and came back during Thanksgiving and it seems as if we returned to our normal high-school lives. Maybe I'm just looking for too big of changes and should focus on little things..

Speaking of little things, God has surely been working in my life, even to the littlest thing. I realize a glimpse of God's glory, and have yet to experience much more. One thing i want to share with those who are reading is that i've been really frustrated lately. In a lot of my conversation with people about the gospel and scripture, people tell me "I can't accept that God chooses certain people to go to heaven and others to hell. It's just so unfair. How can God do that? I thought He loved everyone. God can't do that to His people that He created. Why create them in the first place?!" WHY CAN'T PEOPLE UNDERSTAND GOD'S SOVERIGNTY? I truly pray that God will use me, or just anything to show His soverignty and open the eyes of the blinds.

Paul writes in Romans 9, "I speak the truth in Christ- I am not lying, my conscience confirms it in the Holy Spirit- I have great sorrow and unceasing anguish in my heart. For i could wish that I myself were cursed and cut off from Christ for the sake of my brothers, those of my own race, the people of Israel. Theirs is the adoption as sons; theirs is the divine glory, the covenants, the receiving of the law, the temple worship and the promises......." and he goes on to say "Yet, before the twins were born or had done anything good or bad- in order that God's purpose in election might stand: not by works but by him who calls- she was told, "The older willl serve the younger. Just as it is written: "Jacob I have loved, but Esau i hated." What then shall we say? Is God unjust? NOT AT ALL! For he says to Moses "I will have mercy on whom I have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I have compassion" it does not therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy. For the Scripture says to Pharoah, "I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth." Therefore, God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden."

Just read Romans 9. Dont take my words, for it fails. But read the living Word of God, and see for yourself. God's soverignty is just so amazing. I am just astounded and truly in awe of God and how good He really is. I realize I never really understood the meaning of "God is good". But truly...
God is GOOD